I Took The Risk

I did it. And it was worth it. I've never been so happy. I've never felt so complete...so perfect, like everything was moving in a slow-paced movie-kind-of-way. And all I knew is that there was nothing else that I could ever ask for.

Then fear sank in.

Fear that it won't last for long...that maybe this is just a taste of something that I could never have. 

I was so scared. No, "terrified" is the word.

I couldn't pray. I'm scared to know what God's will is. I'm scared to face reality.

And I can do nothing about it.

Wretched

What if you have something that you desire to have that you couldn't have. It sounded really that simple. But what if that "something" has been your dream ever since you were little. Almost everybody else in the world could have it. Well, everybody....except you. 

As you were growing up, you realize that maybe it just ain't for you. You just watch and stare with longing to the people around who have it. Then you finally come to accept that you will never have your dream. Never in this lifetime. That it ain't even possible. That maybe you were one of the chosen who could never have it. 

Then one day came. Suddenly hope came like a kindled fire in the void of your datkness. Everything seemed possible now that made you into thinking that maybe you have a chance after all. But the problem is, you are no longer that little kid who's fond of dreaming. You are now much wiser and knowledgable about things. You now understand why the universe would never allow you to have what you have desired most. The thing is...it is now possible... 

But it might cost you your soul.

Will you take the risk?