A lot has happened in the past two years that I haven't blogged. Things went out of control. Things happened the way it shouldn't have. Basically, it feels like nothing is going right. This is not the future that I had imagined two years ago.
Yesterday while I was surfing the web, I clicked the "New Tab" which led me to a screen where my favorite websites are arranged in a panel. And there it was, a cobwebbed website I haven't visited for a while--my very own blog. I went in and read the posts that I made years ago. I read them and was exactly surprised. It felt like I was reading somebody else's work! Realizations came flooding in.
I am now a very different man.
They said that change is inevitable, that people change for the better, that the present is already the best version of ourselves. I beg to disagree. Sometimes people tend to become more wretched and vile because of how circumstances transform them. Their choices affect who they are, slowly, but it build up who they will become. And here I am, stuck into regret of the choices that I made for the past years. I never imagined how my choices which seemed not a big deal before have put me into this pitfall of darkness.
Oh what I would do to be that man again two years ago. God-fearing. Faithful. Positive.
Only God can save me now.
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