A Letter From The Past

I once came into this really cool website called FutureMe.org where you could write a letter to your future self. Basically you'll just compose a letter for yourself and they will send it to you (well email, that is) after exactly one year. I was so bored back then and I was ecstatic to try it out. And, as what the website had promised, I got the mail last April. I just forgot to share it to you.

So, without further adieu, here is the letter. A letter from the past.

Whooops. Creepy!

The following is an e-mail from the past, composed 11 months and 30 days ago, on April 13, 2012. It is being delivered from the past through FutureMe.org

Dear FutureMe,
I'm writing to you now because I was sooo freeakin' bored. Yep. It will be Sabbath later and we just finished 3 sets of those crazy killer cardio exercises. So... yeah. kind'a tired but feeling great.
You know, We are sooo far from God these past few days and thankfully, He has lifted us up. AGAIN. You well know how it goes dude. I hope you've overcome this darling sin that brings us down. God is suppose to be the center of your life. Nothing else.
How's your spiritual journey so far? I hope everything's going well between you and our Father. Hope you're ready to meet Jesus any time now. He's already at the door. :)
How's your physique? Right now, I'm still at 140 lbs or a little more (we've been overeating this summer, LOL) and 5'7 tall. I'm currently sunburned. We just had our church hiking (your very first hiking ever @ Mt. Manabu, yey!) and we had a swimming at Batangas afterwards and had our very first Splash Island experience with the Ligan family. We had our spa with bestfriends and watched Wrath of the Titans with YCGs. Fun fun fun summer.
How's your summer by the way? I suppose you're very busy. OJT right? How did 4th year went? I know it's been tough for you. I still have no idea right now what kind of hell I will be passing through. Can I handle it?
We just recently and miraculously (you were sure you failed Advanced) passed the compre. You placed 5th for Auditing Theory. Tell me you're ready to top the board exam! Remember that you have actually zero math abilities. LMAO! I wonder how you managed to be an Accountancy student still! God definitely works miracle my friend. Tell me about the new miracles that you've witnessed this year.
Have you become fit already? Oh please tell me you have abs now and good looking arms. HAHA! If not, s'okay! Never too late John. :D
How's mama? How's papa? How about ate? I hope they're fine and very very happy. Have you succeeded in bringing papa back to God already? Remember you promised you won't give up.
How many people have you inspired for the past year? Have you met "her" already? LOL. Geez I have a LOT of questions to ask!! Okay. Forget about sentences. I'll just bullet them alright? Getting tired now. Still lazy. haha (hope you've overcome that already.)
-Have you given May, Myrem and Lian they're graduation gifts?!?!?!! (You became broke afterwards I suppose! LMAO!)
-Is Bunjang still a devilish brat little kid?? Geez I hate that kid. But I love her. hahaha.
-Is Iris and Orvile going steady now? HAHAHAHA!
-How many 4th year BSA batchmates of yours are left now? Hope you're still more than 8.
-Did Mama actually bought the New iPad???? Please.please.please!! :))))
-Do you look better than me now??? haha!
-Tell me you're white. and blemish free!!!! oh yesss!!
-How was the ending of Breaking Dawn?? Still sucks?
-What books, save the Accounting books, have you read? Which ones are your favorites?
-I currently have the LG phone right now. It's commiting suicide. HAHA! What's your phone?
-Tell me you're reading this letter on your Macbook Pro and it's still in perfect health.
-Are there flying cars already??
-How did the December 12, 2012 go?? I'm sooo excited to know!
-Tell me you're still qualified for Magna cum laude or I'll kill the teacher who might've ruined our dream!
-We went gaga for the iPhone 4S. How's Siri in your generation now?
-How was Allen's board exam? Or are they still about to take it?
-Have you overcome "IT"? You know what I mean. Please. Tell me you did.
-Do you wear glasses now? Or are you still a martyr over your eyes?
-How's your allergy?
-What's Ate's job right now?
-Is mama still in DIAGEO?
-Is papa still addicted to boxing?? HAHA
-How did the Corona issue go?
-Do you currently have a crush on someone??? ayeeeee! tell me about it!
-How's church??
WE HAVE A LOT OF CATCHING UP TO DO!!!
But yeah. This email would protest. hahaha! Too long a message.
Now that you've read it, I guess it's time for you to write a letter again for the next "us" in April 13, 2014. Gosh! Tell him goodluck for the boards and TOP it! Tell Him to have more faith and continue to be gorgeous and amazing. Inspire more people John. I will always be a part of you. Never forget me. Never forget your past because it is where the "You" came out from.
God Bless you always. I LOVE YOU.
Pray. :)
With utmost love,
John of April 13, 2012.




There you go. Now go to the website and make a letter to the future you!

Note: I wasn't paid to advertise them. LOL

Delta

A pyramid. The mathematical symbol for "change".

A lot has happened in the past two years that I haven't blogged. Things went out of control. Things happened the way it shouldn't have. Basically, it feels like nothing is going right. This is not the future that I had imagined two years ago.

Yesterday while I was surfing the web, I clicked the "New Tab" which led me to a screen where my favorite websites are arranged in a panel. And there it was, a cobwebbed website I haven't visited for a while--my very own blog. I went in and read the posts that I made years ago. I read them and was exactly surprised. It felt like I was reading somebody else's work! Realizations came flooding in.

I am now a very different man.

They said that change is inevitable, that people change for the better, that the present is already the best version of ourselves. I beg to disagree. Sometimes people tend to become more wretched and vile because of how circumstances transform them. Their choices affect who they are, slowly, but it build up who they will become. And here I am, stuck into regret of the choices that I made for the past years. I never imagined how my choices which seemed not a big deal before have put me into this pitfall of darkness.

Oh what I would do to be that man again two years ago. God-fearing. Faithful. Positive.

Only God can save me now.