Friday, 26 August 2011

The Gift of Forgiveness


"Although Jesus carved the law in eternal stone and etched Babylon's curse on cedar walls, He writes our sins in dust ---dust that vanish, erased by the breath of His love and forgiveness." -Anonymous (an excerpt from Isaiah 44:22)

Have you ever been into that point in your life when you feel so filthy, so sinful, so ragged that you just have no options left but to cry out to God for His mercy? Oh, how grateful you were when you felt His instant forgiveness! You immediately feel a shift in your mood, and you feel a strange warm sensation engulfing your soul. The feeling is the most incredible thing that you've ever felt. It almost feels ecstatic. 'Tis a feeling you never ever would have experienced in your wandering in this lonely world.

God's mercy. It is a mercy like no other. No one but His Son Jesus was the only one who had ever forgiven as such here on earth. Amidst all the mockery and shame He had experienced while in the pit of His sorrow before His death, He asked His Father for the forgiveness those people never deserved ---the very people who caused His suffering and death.

I myself never deserved God's forgiveness. Oftentimes, I question God the same questions that have been boggling me ever since: 'Why?' 'Why does He forgive so easily?' 'Why does He love me so?' Yet God answers me by the same answer, "I just do."

I often look at how it must have been for God. I have been sinning the same sins that I have been confessing yet I never have reached the point of repentance that I wanted. I sometimes tell God, "Father, how can I ever fight the devil when he had been here since the beginning of the world and have already mastered the weakness of the human flesh? How can I be pure if I am naturally unclean?" Yet with every stumble and fall, He never fails to lift me up and receive me again and again and again and again....and again. He never fails to let me feel very welcome in His arms; to let me feel the same warmth that He had let me feel when I first received Him to my self. 

Would God ever be tired of my sins? Would he ever get tired of me? In the world's point of view as what it views "the natural supposed-to-be way", the answer would be a "Yes" but fortunately, my God is not a worldly God. He is a God like no other. He is the God that I will serve forever. Yes, He is very mysterious in all His ways but I just love Him just the way He is.

In all my past sinnings and my future ones, I made a promise with Him. I told Him that however sinful and filthy I may have become or even if the door of heaven closes from me, I will always come back to Him and never cease in praising His holy name.




1 comment:

  1. it's a fact that we're all naturally unclean, we sin so much, every single day... but praise God, because He is naturally forgiving. I just couldn't digest the fact that He never gets tired of us..simply amazing truth. That's why in return, we shouldn't abuse His loving,forgiving "sent You my only Son to die for you, save you, and reconcile you with Me" nature..


    love this post! :)

    Happy sabbath, God bless!

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